i'm trying...but it's trying.

i decided to take last night off from running. i got home from a pretty disappointing day at work and my moral was low. my legs were sore from the 30 miles in the past 4 days (a lot for me) and i decided to act on the cautious side. i'm looking to put another nice 4 day block in starting today, with a long run (10-12 miles) on saturday and maybe some hill repeats tonight. the latter has me nervous, i haven't done 'quality' work in what seems a coon's age, but it has been recommended to me by a trusted source for a while now and, well, i've put it off long enough.

right now i'm in a low point of the oscillation that is my work satisfaction. we had a department wide meeting yesterday and the division manager pretty much said stop complaining, we have no control, it's all corperate mandated (salaries, promotions, bonuses, etc)....but your managers are doing everything they can to improve your situation. ie, we try but are bound by corperate. bullshit. i hate the 'sit back and wait for corperate' line that this place spews more and more often. what makes it most disheartening is that we are all supposed to start 'thinking outside the box' (i HATE that phrase btw) but i guess we are not supposed to hold management to that same credo.

i really wish the 'real world' was different. but, when given lemons you can make lemonaide or you the chuck them back in the face of the people who gave you the crappy lot. i'm still deciding which path to follow (i know which one i'd prefer).