frustrated.

i'm not racing at the level that i should be. i know i'm never going to be a top pro, but i also know who i should be beating and i'm not getting it done. if i'm not performing at these races i'm not having fun. and if i'm not having fun than what's the point? wors races in and of themselves really aren't fun...it's the same people at the same courses year after year after year...

i won't be doing another wors race until we get back from denmark...which means not until september. eff it.

what mystifies me the most is that this is the best year of training i've ever done for the mtb. from the first week of january to the last week of april, i averaged 10 hours/week...mostly outdoors. my base is there. i've been doing speedwork now, averaging 8-10 hours per week. the fitness is there... i'm just not executing.