cold as gasoline

another craptastic workout. legs don't feel heavy or tired, just really weak. i must admit i'm worried about fat tire. based on how i feel and how much i've been able to train the past 6 months, i really don't know what a time objective should even look like at this point...maybe i should be happy with just finishing? i miss being fit and fast (well, fast for me). when i used to have endless amounts of time for training i took it for granted.

work (with some wall sanding at lunch), rode for 1.5 hours, mowed lawn, ate, did some work on our disorganized basement, worked on internship (slowed by intermittant internet outtages) and to bed just after 11. i really wanted to get up early this morning and run but couldn't get out of bed. while the extra hour of sleep was nice it means i won't be getting a workout in today because we have our first baby class at the hospital after work. that won't help this weak leg thing.

i am very uncomfortable with mediocrity. unfortunately, it seems about as good as i can do in all aspects of my life these days.

happy thursday.