tipping point.
i have a cycle at work. wait for work (big project). spend a lot of time preparing. start said project after many delays by the client. have rug pulled out from under me (either the project goes away or people are shifted somewhere else). start cycle over.
it's the nature of working in a contract organization. and it is getting old. i don't feel a lot of loyalty to my corporation...it is a step behind in terms of compensation and benefit packages. but the people i work with are what keep me here. at some point that won't be enough. i feel bad about it, and i think there are some things i could do to improve it, but i've been beaten down enough where i question if it is worth it.
sorry, it's been one of those...mornings.
i got the bike dialed in last night and ready to go. i'll be doing a test flight tonight with the goal of eliminating that last creak i've been hearing. i'm nervous for the race this weekend. not nervous in a way i used to be, just nervous about the fact that, while i haven't forgotten that mtb races hurt, i have forgotten just how much.
happy friday.
it's the nature of working in a contract organization. and it is getting old. i don't feel a lot of loyalty to my corporation...it is a step behind in terms of compensation and benefit packages. but the people i work with are what keep me here. at some point that won't be enough. i feel bad about it, and i think there are some things i could do to improve it, but i've been beaten down enough where i question if it is worth it.
sorry, it's been one of those...mornings.
i got the bike dialed in last night and ready to go. i'll be doing a test flight tonight with the goal of eliminating that last creak i've been hearing. i'm nervous for the race this weekend. not nervous in a way i used to be, just nervous about the fact that, while i haven't forgotten that mtb races hurt, i have forgotten just how much.
happy friday.
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